Skip to content
Pam Schmoll
Menu
  • Blog
  • Contact
Menu

I’m Not Special

Posted on June 11, 2023June 11, 2023 by Pam

BLOG 6/7/23

I’m Not Special

I said that to a very dear friend after she surprised me with a most wonderful gift. I was so stunned that what I really thought came out of my mouth and I feel ashamed. It was a few days ago and I knew I needed to write about it to confess to God that I meant no disrespect to Him. He knitted me in my Mother’s womb and He made me in His image. How can I not be special?

I just listened to a famous Ted Talk with Brene Brown discussing vulnerability. It is a hard topic and interesting research. Basically she says that it takes courage to admit we are imperfect. Numbing vulnerability will also numb joy and happiness in our lives. It begins with compassion for me and others. We are wired for imperfection and struggle so embracing my ‘not so special members’ in me is healthy. We cannot control and predict life but it is time for us all to be honest and VULNERABLE. Thank you Brene.

I think I’ve distorted modesty and humility. There have been a few people in my recent past who have told me by their actions and words that I am not special, in fact, I’m brought low by what a person thinks and I’m not built up by what God says. He put some wonderful gifts into my nature. He helps me love people beyond my capability. He has taught me about work, service, and relationships. He has given me such a love for my children and grandchildren. He gave me my children and grandchildren. I like being tall. I love the life He has given to me. He has made me a connector and a communicator. I’m really not all that bad. My dear friend responded to me in that moment in the perfect way. She told me my value to her and then I cried. My response was natural and vulnerable. We do not often receive kind words and we need to offer them frequently to others. God has put the right people in our sphere and we are to be image bearers of the love He has for them too. I love you dear friend and will treasure this gift until my last day and will be praying for you on your journey until my last day. Thank you. 

"Thoughts from a genuinely evaluative mind."

Pam writes so that must make her a writer. Recently retired, she can now fill days with family, friends, missions, writing, creating, and showing up for whomever needs her. Pam loves the Lord and people. The Bible is God’s love letter to us (and who does not need more love) so she studies and writes some more.

Pam lives in the Pacific Northwest but was home-grown in Southern California. She attended San Jose Bible College and finished a Bachelor of Science degree in Biochemistry at UCLA. She became a teacher, then a Research and Development Chemist, then she built two successful real estate businesses in two states. Pam also pursued study at Fuller Theological Seminary and just completed six months serving in missions abroad.

Pam has two amazing children, married to two precious in-laws, and five sweet grandchildren. Pam is a gifted connector and communicator and the Northwest has the perfect climate for staying inside and writing – or baking! She has been writing since a wee one and is currently converting many years of blogging, by topic, into ten books. The first is a collection from 2011 titled, Beautiful Enough. The second is a yearly day-timer titled, Weekly Planner - Lessons in Life, Glory, and Grace. Number three is in progress with the working title, Christmas Today.

Ten facts about Pam in no particular order:

  1. On the team that developed an insulation for the Alaskan oil pipeline.
  2. Loves looking at homes, decorating, and has flipped five homes.
  3. Likes being tall.
  4. Films have helped define her vocabulary.
  5. Comes from Colorado tenement farmers with history traced to Wales.
  6. Was lost but now is found.
  7. Baking makes her happy – as does eating sweets with coffee, of course.
  8. She thinks mission work is the most important work in the world.
  9. The church started in Rome so she is learning Italian.
  10. Pam is a work in progress!

“I will be your God throughout your lifetime - until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you.” Isaiah 46:4

© 2025 Pam Schmoll | Powered by Minimalist Blog WordPress Theme