This line from the movie may or may not be in the Jane Austen book, ‘Sense and Sensibility’. It is expertly delivered by Alan Rickman who I miss so much. Don’t you wish the real people we love and miss had been film stars so we could revisit them whenever we want? There are two tv versions and some movies plus spin-offs from this classic. I stand by my disagreement with a friend that the 2008 film version is the best because in 1995 Emma Thompson (beautiful and brilliant) at age 36 plays the part of a nineteen year old. I don’t know how she was cast other than that she was one of the producers. So I connect with Colonel Brandens weariness over the ill sweetheart and he wants to do something. I have been back from a missions trip for over three months and some days I am not doing enough. I feel restless. Do I still belong in this previous place and life? I do have peace that I am resting this summer. I am seeing friends, traveling to grandkids, and even camping. I want to DO something more or I shall run mad. I don’t know what has changed but, actually, everything changes. We can count on change. So scripture brilliantly directs us to the first things first. That is how I can order each day. What is the most Kingdom building use of my time? I want to pray and praise Him. I want to serve in small ways. The things I am not happy about are how much exercise it takes to remain healthy. It used to be a positive addiction in my life but covid changed all that. When in these other countries I could not easily access transportation to satisfy a food craving so now I snack whenever I feel like it. I think the walking was very good for me. Snacking is bad because I am not eating berries but chocolate. I love phoning a friend, knowing that a business call will not come in on the line. If I need a doctor I’m close. I am completely distracted by – wait for it – ME. The me on the field had one purpose thou many activities. For some reason the me at home is softer – not as strong and driven. God always has a plan and I just want to get to it even though, I hope, I am in it today.